Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Student of the Month

S was the student of the month last month. She was so proud.  So was I.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Moments like these . . .

Moments like these make me smile. 

I'm Sorry

Have you ever felt that the most difficult phrase to say in every language is "I'm sorry?"  These are the two words in which we admit we may have been wrong, we give some of our pride to the other person as it were, and we are sad because we may have caused distress. But in the same phrase we are declaring that we care more for that person, than just feeling superior for a moment because we are undoubtedly right and there are no if's, and's or but's about it.

Recently, I had a moment of sad, preposterous weakness.  It doesn't matter who was right or wrong, it was that I hurt the feelings of a person that I love dearly.

Being a wife is a double-edged sword. I know my sweetheart's strengths better than anyone. If you ask me you'll probably get a more detailed list than you every dreamed someone would give.  But I also know his weaknesses, which means with no thought of the consequences I can say the most cutting things.

The minute those things come out of my mouth, remorse sets in like the weighing numbness of getting a shot right before a cavity is filled. I replay what I have just said in my mind and the reality of what I said, how I said it and the angry why immediately fill me with remorse. And then, for some reason my mouth continues saying hurtful things despite my mind attempting to stop it.

Then, I pause. Really pause. I look around me. My children are staring at me in dismay and worry. My sweetheart can hardly look at me and I feel angry. At me.

Then with a quick repentant prayer for help I say the two words, hoping beyond hope somehow it will all be alright. "I'm sorry."  Followed with a few more important words. "I love you so much." "I should not have said those things."

Whoever invented those two words was genius.  The universal bandage.  Some of the greatest words of comfort. The desire for peace. A homage to love and/or understanding. "I'm sorry."


I love you W! I'm sorry. You mean the world to me!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Friends. Inspiring People.

These people and many more, make me feel so grateful and have touched my heart. These are some of my friends. They are in no particular order, but they each have made a difference in my life. So to them I say an emphatic, Thank you!

It takes a good friend to listen, offer advice when asked, go get ice cream together upon occasion, switch babysitting, listen to hopes; dreams; ideals; disasters, allow me to take photographs, laugh with me, cry with me, and just being there.

You are amazing women and I am so glad I know you! :D

Friday, February 3, 2012

Family Field Trip

Today we hopped on the train and headed to Prospect Park and the library.
I got some books and promised myself that I will absolutely return them. On time. Truly.

R had his first chili dog, which he has been asking me to get him.  We had it in the library. I felt like such a rebel, with the exception that all the people in that area of the library were eating too.

Then we went to Prospect Park and rolled down the hills. It was so fun and we all felt a little dizzy afterward.  

S and T fell asleep within an hour and a half of getting home.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Grateful . . . Yosemite

Sometimes I get caught up with myself. I forget how dearly I am blessed. It would take me years, literally, to name all my blessings.  I think watching the video below really brought it home.  Note to self, be more grateful for all the "little" things.

Like they say in Pride and Prejudice the six hour version, right at the very end, "Oh Mr. Bennett, God has been very good to us." "Yes, so it would seem."

Yosemite HD from Project Yosemite on Vimeo.