Wednesday, September 19, 2012

The Mantra

Do you ever have days where you feel like you're hanging onto sanity or hope by the skin of your teeth?  I have those days every now and again. It is usually when I am bedraggled with compare-itus.  So and so has such and such and I want that.  It's usually not material good, it is talents that I desperately want.  I want the ability to understand and interact with people with amazing tact like so and so. I wish I could have my home be immaculate like so and so and have the endless energy to get and keep my home in excellent order.  Blah, blah blah. You've heard it all before.

But the thing is, I have got the essentials well covered.  I mean I have a knowledge that my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that my life has a plan and I have an end goal for my family and I.  I know I have a purpose. I have a family that loves me and that I love so dearly.  I have a roof over my head and food to eat.  So what's my big deal?!

When I get these severe cases of compare-itus I pull out the old, "I am really grateful for . . . " And I try to be like the gratitude chain that some families put together at Thanksgiving time. I'm grateful that I emptied out that thing at the bottom of the sink, that I made dinner.  These may seem insignificant, but to me they are small victories.

But then, sometimes even getting these little victories seem like obstacles--especially at six when my husband walks in the door and again I feel totally unable to do anything because the dinner I had planned would take too long and I procrastinated too much. But gratefully I have a loving patient husband that celebrates my small victories with me (by waiting to eat a lot so he can eat what I've fixed even if he's starving--usually).

While I fix the food or do the tasks I repeat to myself, "I can do hard things! I can do hard things!"


When I think this the scripture echoes in my head  from Philippians 4:13 that states "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."  That whole chapter is pretty inspiring.

Then after I think this, I remember that God can do all things.  I just need an ounce of faith and a ton of determination and I can do anything. Oh and I need to eat, because that my mantra changes to "I need a snack ten minutes ago" if I'm too hungry.

The following is my mantra for tomorrow.


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